1番のサビは、1:52からです。The main part start at 1:52. ↓English lyrics are listed below. 自立支援施設をこれから利用し社会に復帰して社会に貢献して いずれ社会のwin(勝者)になる為に希望に満ちているんだけど その希望が裏切られ失望させられる、嗚呼～…。 僕は昔から色んな事が不器用で努力しても覚えられなかった その癖、正義感は他人よりもあった事を 市役所職員に話すと「発達障がいの疑いがあるかも知れない」と…。 僕は障がい者枠で働いてる人をネットで調べたら皆活き活き働いてるし 作業内容も割と簡単で人権尊重してくれそうな感じだった 僕は(障がい者)手帳を母と協力し　手に入れたら次は自立する為の 施設を探す　色んなトコの中で近くて良さそうな 自立支援施設見つけ　そこへ通う為に実際に見学させて頂いて その支援施設に体験入所を終えて晴れて通う事になったけど これが新たな悲劇になる…。 入所してから1カ月半経ったある日　カリキュラムをこなしていたら 僕より不器用な少女が行き詰まって　途中で泣き崩れてしまってた 僕は帰りにその娘を慰める為に手紙渡したらドン引きされちゃったよ…。 次の日帰りにスタッフに呼ばれて 「今度やったら辞めさせます」と言われた…。 その支援施設って実は恋愛禁止で「前にそれで辞めさせられた人が居ます ウチの支援施設は自立する場所であって 出会いの場じゃ無い!」と怒られたよ　僕の心は、ぴえんになる…。 気持ち切り替えて別の可愛い娘に手紙を送ったら次の日デートしてくれました 彼女はパシリにされてる事をスタッフに言ったら 「彼は足が悪いから(ゴミを)捨ててあげなさい」って言われたよ 彼女が自発的にやってるなら良いけど、そうでは無かった…。 自分で捨てさせろ!　ここは自立をする場所じゃないのか、嗚呼～! そう言えば他の施設との合同カリキュラムの時に 相手のスタッフが「桂さんと佐藤さんの髪が癖っ毛同士でお揃い」 と言ったら佐藤が明らかに嫌がってる顔した ここでもこう言う扱いされるのか、嗚呼～! 自立支援施設のお陰で就職出来たけど 1年半後、色々耐えられなくなって辞めてすぐ スタッフの鈴木さんと一緒に職場に行って 僕は第一声、謝罪したけど終盤間際に鈴木さんが 「謝りなさい!」って怒って来たよ 一番最初に謝ったんだけれどなあ…。 自立支援施設の所属期限って2年間らしい その間に就職出来なければ辞めさせられちゃうよ 支援施設も結局は(悪い意味で)会社や学校と同じだったよ…。 利用者に寄り添うんじゃないのかよ?　自立支援施設って…。 いつまでも自立出来ない　 これじゃまるで自立遅延施設　いや、幼稚園施設…。 そう言えば僕らをパシリにしていた 車椅子の彼はウチの施設の広告塔だったけど 仕事決まらないまま期限過ぎて辞めてしまったよ 何やってんだかな?　本当彼等は…。 説明文：私が以前、自立する為に障がい者専用の自立支援施設に通ってた時に、そこのホームページやパンフレットのアットホームな雰囲気に魅せられてそこに通う事にしたのですが、そのイメージと微妙に違う事に戸惑いながら通っていた時の気持ちを、この歌に込めてみました。ちなみに、作中の「佐藤さん」「鈴木さん」と言うのは、架空の名称です。ですがされた事は、残念ながら概ね事実です。ちなみに、2人目に手紙を渡した女性とは、結婚を前提にお付き合いさせて頂いてたのですが、主に私の経済力不足が原因で、残念ながら婚約解消となってしまいました…。最後に、1人目に手紙を渡した女性との詳細は、次の曲で語らせて頂きます。 I am filled with hope that I will use the independence support facility from now on, return to society, contribute to society, and eventually become a winner in society, but that hope is betrayed and I am disappointed. I’ve always been clumsy in many things and couldn’t remember no matter how hard I tried He told a city hall employee that his habit and sense of justice was stronger than others, and he was told that he might have a developmental disorder. When I searched the internet for people working in the handicapped category, I found that they were all working energetically, the work was relatively easy, and they seemed to respect human rights. I cooperated with my mother to obtain a handicapped person’s handbook, and once I got it, I looked for a facility where I could become independent.　 Among various facilities, I found an independent support facility that seemed to be close and looked good, and in order to go there, I actually visited it. become…. One day, a month and a half after I entered, when I was doing the curriculum, a girl who was more clumsy than me was at a dead end and broke down in tears. When I gave her a letter to comfort her daughter on her way home, she got scared… On the next day, I was called by the staff and told, “If you do it next time, I’ll make you quit.” The support facility is actually prohibited from dating, and I was scolded, saying, “Some people were forced to quit because of that. Our support facility is a place to become independent, not a place to meet!”, and my heart is sad. Become…. I changed my mind and sent a letter to another cute girl, and she went on a date the next day. When she told the staff that she was running errands for her, she said, “He’s bad at his feet, so you should throw away the garbage instead.” It would be nice if she did it voluntarily, but it wasn’t… Let me throw it away myself! Isn’t this a place to become independent! Come to think of it, during a joint curriculum with another facility, when the other staff member said, “Mr. Katsura and Ms. Satoh have curly hair that matches each other,” Satoh clearly disliked it. Are you treated like this here too, ah~! Thanks to the independence support facility, I was able to find a job, but after a year and a half, I couldn’t stand a lot of things, so I immediately quit. “Apologize!” It seems that the deadline for belonging to an independent support facility is 2 years If you can’t get a job during that time, you’ll be fired. In the end, support facilities were the same as companies and schools in a bad way… Isn’t it supposed to be close to the users? Self-reliance support facilities… I can’t stand on my own forever, this is like a self-reliant delay facility. No, a kindergarten facility… Come to think of it, the guy in a wheelchair who used to run errands for us was a billboard for our facility, but he quit after the deadline without getting a job. Description: When I used to go to an independent support facility for people with disabilities to become independent, I decided to go there because I was fascinated by the homely atmosphere of the homepage and pamphlets there. I tried to put into this song the feelings I had when I passed by while being confused by the slightly different things.